He just left! I yelled at him and basically told him what an jerk he was to want this divorce. I was screaming and just couldn't stop! I LOST IT! I told him that I was tired of having been his prostitute for the last 18 years, that I hated the fact that he couldn't wait to get this divorce. I could not stop. I said so many terribly hurtful things. It was clear that I wanted to hurt him. It was clear that he couldn't wait to leave. I hate myself for being like this. I hate him. I hate!
Was I in a dream world this morning to think that things would, could work out? What a fool I am!
Maybe this is because it is a FULL MOON again! A month since this all started with him coming home at 2:30 in the morning and saying he wasn't happy. How can I still feel so messed up?
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|"Full Moon Divorce" acrylic on canvas 20" x 28" 12/1998|
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